Ambleside Online: Sixty Selected Poems of Edna St. Vincent Millay
American, 1892-1950
List of Selected
Poems
Renascence
God's World
Blight
Sonnets:
Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
If I should learn, in some quite casual way
Baccalaureate
Hymn, Vassar College, 1917
City Trees
Journey
Travel
Elaine
The Little Hill
Exiled
Sonnets:
When I too long have looked upon your face
Once more into my arid days like dew
Portrait By a
Neighbor
The Philosopher
My Heart, Being
Hungry
Departure
The Spring and The
Fall
The Ballad of the
Harp-Weaver
Spring Song
Sonnets:
When you, that at this moment are to me
Oh, oh, you will be sorry for that word!
Here is a wound that never will heal, I know
I shall go back again to the bleak shore
Loving you less than life, a little less
What lips my lips have kissed, and where, and why,
How healthily their feet upon the floor
One way there was of muting in the mind
It came into her mind, seeing how the snow
To the Wife of a
Sick Friend
To a Friend
Estranged From Me
The Buck In The
Snow
Hangman's Oak
The Cameo
To A Young Girl
Sonnets:
For this, your mother sweated in the cold ("To Jesus on
His Birthday")
Love is not all: it is not meat nor drink
--
Hearing your words, and not a word among them
Now by the path I climbed, I journey back.
Autumn Daybreak
The Oak-Leaves
The Fawn
Sonnet
The Leaf and The
Tree
On the Wide Heath
Plaid Dress
Sonnet:
Upon this age, that never speaks its mind
To the Maid of
Orleans
The courage that
my mother had (untitled)
Here in a Rocky Cup
The Agnostic
Cave Canem
An Ancient Gesture
To a Snake
Sometimes, oh,
often, indeed (untitled)
Sonnets:
And is indeed truth beauty?--at the cost
It is the fashion now to wave aside
Read history: so learn your place in Time
Read history: thus learn how small a space
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Poems
from Renascence, 1917
Renascence
All I could see
from where I stood
Was three long
mountains and a wood;
I turned and
looked another way,
And saw three
islands in a bay.
So with my eyes I
traced the line
Of the horizon,
thin and fine,
Straight around
till I was come
Back to where I'd
started from;
And all I saw from
where I stood
Was three long
mountains and a wood.
Over these things
I could not see;
These were the
things that bounded me;
And I could touch
them with my hand,
Almost, I thought,
from where I stand.
And all at once
things seemed so small
My breath came
short, and scarce at all.
But, sure, the sky
is big, I said;
Miles and miles
above my head;
So here upon my
back I'll lie
And look my fill
into the sky.
And so I looked,
and, after all,
The sky was not so
very tall.
The sky, I said,
must somewhere stop,
And--sure
enough!--I see the top!
The sky, I
thought, is not so grand;
I 'most could
touch it with my hand!
And reaching up my
hand to try,
I screamed to feel
it touch the sky.
I screamed, and--
lo!--Infinity
Came down and
settled over me;
Forced back my
scream into my chest,
Bent back my arm
upon my breast,
And, pressing of
the Undefined
The definition on
my mind,
Held up before my
eyes a glass
Through which my
shrinking sight did pass
Until it seemed I
must behold
Immensity made
manifold;
Whispered to me a
word whose sound
Deafened the air
for worlds around,
And brought
unmuffled to my ears
The gossiping of
friendly spheres,
The creaking of
the tented sky,
The ticking of
Eternity.
I saw and heard,
and knew at last
The How and Why of
all things, past,
And present, and
forevermore.
The Universe,
cleft to the core,
Lay open to my
probing sense
That, sick'ning, I
would fain pluck thence
But could not,--
nay! But needs must suck
At the great
wound, and could not pluck
My lips away till
I had drawn
All venom out.--
Ah, fearful pawn!
For my omniscience
paid I toll
In infinite
remorse of soul.
All sin was of my
sinning, all
Atoning mine, and
mine the gall
Of all regret.
Mine was the weight
Of every brooded
wrong, the hate
That stood behind
each envious thrust,
Mine every greed,
mine every lust.
And all the while
for every grief,
Each suffering, I
craved relief
With individual
desire,--
Craved all in
vain! And felt fierce fire
About a thousand
people crawl;
Perished with
each,--then mourned for all!
A man was starving
in Capri;
He moved his eyes
and looked at me;
I felt his gaze, I
heard his moan,
And knew his
hunger as my own.
I saw at sea a
great fog bank
Between two ships
that struck and sank;
A thousand screams
the heavens smote;
And every scream
tore through my throat.
No hurt I did not
feel, no death
That was not mine;
mine each last breath
That, crying, met
an answering cry
From the
compassion that was I.
All suffering
mine, and mine its rod;
Mine, pity like
the pity of God.
Ah, awful weight!
Infinity
Pressed down upon
the finite Me!
My anguished
spirit, like a bird,
Beating against my
lips I heard;
Yet lay the weight
so close about
There was no room
for it without.
And so beneath the
weight lay I
And suffered
death, but could not die.
Long had I lain
thus, craving death,
When quietly the
earth beneath
Gave way, and inch
by inch, so great
At last had grown
the crushing weight,
Into the earth I
sank till I
Full six feet
under ground did lie,
And sank no more,
--there is no weight
Can follow here,
however great.
From off my breast
I felt it roll,
And as it went my
tortured soul
Burst forth and
fled in such a gust
That all about me
swirled the dust.
Deep in the earth
I rested now;
Cool is its hand
upon the brow
And soft its
breast beneath the head
Of one who is so
gladly dead.
And all at once,
and over all
The pitying rain
began to fall;
I lay and heard
each pattering hoof
Upon my lowly,
thatched roof,
And seemed to love
the sound far more
Than ever I had
done before.
For rain it hath a
friendly sound
To one who's six
feet underground;
And scarce the
friendly voice or face:
A grave is such a
quiet place.
The rain, I said,
is kind to come
And speak to me in
my new home.
I would I were
alive again
To kiss the
fingers of the rain,
To drink into my
eyes the shine
Of every slanting
silver line,
To catch the
freshened, fragrant breeze
From drenched and
dripping apple-trees.
For soon the
shower will be done,
And then the broad
face of the sun
Will laugh above
the rain-soaked earth
Until the world
with answering mirth
Shakes joyously,
and each round drop
Rolls, twinkling,
from its grass-blade top.
How can I bear it;
buried here,
While overhead the
sky grows clear
And blue again
after the storm?
O, multi-colored,
multiform,
Beloved beauty
over me,
That I shall
never, never see
Again!
Spring-silver, autumn-gold,
That I shall never
more behold!
Sleeping your
myriad magics through,
Close-sepulchred
away from you!
O God, I cried,
give me new birth,
And put me back
upon the earth!
Upset each cloud's
gigantic gourd
And let the heavy
rain, down-poured
In one big
torrent, set me free,
Washing my grave
away from me!
I ceased; and
through the breathless hush
That answered me,
the far-off rush
Of herald wings
came whispering
Like music down
the vibrant string
Of my ascending
prayer, and--crash!
Before the wild
wind's whistling lash
The startled
storm-clouds reared on high
And plunged in
terror down the sky,
And the big rain
in one black wave
Fell from the sky
and struck my grave.
I know not how
such things can be;
I only know there
came to me
A fragrance such
as never clings
To aught save
happy living things;
A sound as of some
joyous elf
Singing sweet
songs to please himself,
And, through and
over everything,
A sense of glad
awakening.
The grass,
a-tiptoe at my ear,
Whispering to me I
could hear;
I felt the rain's
cool finger-tips
Brushed tenderly
across my lips,
Laid gently on my
sealed sight,
And all at once
the heavy night
Fell from my eyes
and I could see,--
A drenched and
dripping apple-tree,
A last long line
of silver rain,
A sky grown clear
and blue again.
And as I looked a
quickening gust
Of wind blew up to
me and thrust
Into my face a
miracle
Of orchard-breath,
and with the smell,--
I know not how
such things can be!--
I breathed my soul
back into me.
Ah! Up then from
the ground sprang I
And hailed the
earth with such a cry
As is not heard
save from a man
Who has been dead,
and lives again.
About the trees my
arms I wound;
Like one gone mad
I hugged the ground;
I raised my
quivering arms on high;
I laughed and
laughed into the sky,
Till at my throat
a strangling sob
Caught fiercely,
and a great heart-throb
Sent instant tears
into my eyes;
O God, I cried, no
dark disguise
Can e'er hereafter
hide from me
Thy radiant
identity!
Thou canst not
move across the grass
But my quick eyes
will see Thee pass,
Nor speak, however
silently,
But my hushed
voice will answer Thee.
I know the path
that tells Thy way
Through the cool
eve of every day;
God, I can push
the grass apart
And lay my finger
on Thy heart!
The world stands
out on either side
No wider than the
heart is wide;
Above the world is
stretched the sky,--
No higher than the
soul is high.
The heart can push
the sea and land
Farther away on
either hand;
The soul can split
the sky in two,
And let the face
of God shine through.
But East and West
will pinch the heart
That can not keep
them pushed apart;
And he whose soul
is flat--the sky
Will cave in on
him by and by.
God's World
O world, I cannot
hold thee close enough!
Thy
winds, thy wide grey skies!
Thy
mists, that roll and rise!
Thy woods, this
autumn day, that ache and sag
And all but cry
with colour! That gaunt crag
To crush! To lift
the lean of that black bluff!
World, World, I
cannot get thee close enough!
Long have I known
a glory in it all,
But
never knew I this;
Here
such a passion is
As stretcheth me
apart,--Lord, I do fear
Thou'st made the
world too beautiful this year;
My soul is all but
out of me,--let fall
No burning leaf;
prithee, let no bird call.
Blight
Hard seeds of hate
I planted
That
should by now be grown,--
Rough stalks, and
from thick stamens
A
poisonous pollen blown,
And odors rank,
unbreathable,
From dark
corollas thrown!
At dawn from my
damp garden
I shook
the chilly dew;
The thin boughs
locked behind me
That
sprang to let me through;
The blossoms
slept,--I sought a place
Where
nothing lovely grew.
And there, when
day was breaking,
I knelt
and looked around:
The light was
near, the silence
Was
palpitant with sound;
I drew my hate
from out my breast
And thrust
it in the ground.
Oh, ye so fiercely
tended,
Ye little
seeds of hate!
I bent above your
growing
Early and
noon and late,
Yet are ye drooped
and pitiful,--
I cannot
rear ye straight!
The sun seeks out
my garden,
No nook is
left in shade,
No mist nor mold
nor mildew
Endures on
any blade,
Sweet rain slants
under every bough:
Ye falter,
and ye fade.
Sonnet:
Time does not
bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time
would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the
weeping of the rain;
I want him at the
shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt
from every mountain-side,
And last year's
leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year's
bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my
heart, and my old thoughts abide!
There are a
hundred places where I fear
To go,-- so
with his memory they brim!
And entering with
relief some quiet place
Where never fell
his foot or shone his face
I say, "There is
no memory of him here!"
And so stand
stricken, so remembering him!
Sonnet:
If I should learn,
in some quite casual way,
That you
were gone, not to return again--
Read from the
back-page of a paper, say,
Held by a
neighbor in a subway train,
How at the corner
of this avenue
And such a
street (so are the papers filled)
A hurrying
man--who happened to be you--
At noon
to-day had happened to be killed,
I should not cry
aloud--I could not cry
Aloud, or
wring my hands in such a place--
I should but watch
the station lights rush by
With a
more careful interest on my face,
Or raise my eyes
and read with greater care
Where to
store furs and how to treat the hair.
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Baccalaureate Hymn
(Vassar College,
1917)
Thou great
offended God of love and kindness,
We have
denied, we have forgotten Thee!
With deafer sense
endow, enlighten us with blindness,
Who, having
ears and eyes, nor hear nor see,
Bright are the
banners on the tents of laughter;
Shunned is
Thy temple, weeds are on the path;
Yet if Thou leave
us, Lord, what help is ours thereafter?-
Be with us
still,-Light not today Thy wrath!
Dark were the ways
where of ourselves we sought Thee,
Anguish,
Derision, Doubt, Desire and Mirth;
Twisted, obscure,
unlovely, Lord, the gifts we brought Thee,
Teach us
what ways have light, what gifts have worth.
Since we are dust,
how shall we not betray Thee?
Still blows
about the world the ancient wind-
Nor yet for lives
untried and tearless would we pray Thee:
Lord let us
suffer that we may grow kind!
"Lord, Lord!" we
cried of old, who now before Thee,
Stricken
with prayer, shaken with praise, are dumb;
Father, accept our
worship when we least adore Thee,
And when we
call Thee not, oh, hear and come!
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from Second April, 1921
City Trees
The trees along
this city street,
Save for
the traffic and the trains,
Would make a sound
as thin and sweet
As trees
in country lanes.
And people
standing in their shade
Out of a
shower, undoubtedly
Would hear such
music as is made
Upon a
country tree.
Oh, little leaves
that are so dumb
Against
the shrieking city air,
I watch you when
the wind has come,--
I know
what sound is there.
Journey
Ah, could I lay me
down in this long grass
And close my eyes,
and let the quiet wind
Blow over me--I am
so tired, so tired
Of passing
pleasant places! All my life,
Following Care
along the dusty road,
Have I looked back
at loveliness and sighed;
Yet at my hand an
unrelenting hand
Tugged ever, and I
passed. All my life long
Over my shoulder
have I looked at peace;
And now I fain
would lie in this long grass
And close my eyes.
Yet onward!
Cat birds call
Through the long
afternoon, and creeks at dusk
Are guttural.
Whip-poor-wills wake and cry,
Drawing the
twilight close about their throats.
Only my heart
makes answer. Eager vines
Go up the rocks
and wait; flushed apple-trees
Pause in their
dance and break the ring for me;
Dim, shady
wood-roads, redolent of fern
And bayberry, that
through sweet bevies thread
Of round-faced
roses, pink and petulant,
Look back and
beckon ere they disappear.
Only my heart,
only my heart responds.
Yet, ah, my path
is sweet on either side
All through the
dragging day,--sharp underfoot
And hot, and like
dead mist the dry dust hangs--
But far, oh, far
as passionate eye can reach,
And long, ah, long
as rapturous eye can cling,
The world is mine:
blue hill, still silver lake,
Broad field,
bright flower, and the long white road;
A gateless garden,
and an open path;
My feet to follow,
and my heart to hold.
Travel
The railroad track
is miles away,
And the day
is loud with voices speaking,
Yet there isn't a
train goes by all day
But I hear
its whistle shrieking.
All night there
isn't a train goes by,
Though the
night is still for sleep and dreaming
But I see its
cinders red on the sky,
And hear
its engine steaming.
My heart is warm
with the friends I make,
And better
friends I'll not be knowing,
Yet there isn't a
train I wouldn't take,
No matter
where it's going.
Elaine
Oh, come again to
Astolat!
I will not
ask you to be kind.
And you may go
when you will go,
And I will
stay behind.
I will not say how
dear you are,
Or ask you
if you hold me dear,
Or trouble you
with things for you
The way I
did last year.
So still the
orchard, Lancelot,
So very
still the lake shall be,
You could not
guess--though you should guess--
What is
become of me.
So wide shall be
the garden-walk,
The
garden-seat so very wide,
You needs must
think--if you should think--
The lily
maid had died.
Save that, a
little way away,
I'd watch
you for a little while,
To see you speak,
the way you speak,
And smile,
-- if you should smile.
The Little Hill
Oh, here the air
is sweet and still,
And soft's
the grass to lie on;
And far away's the
little hill
They took
for Christ to die on.
And there's a hill
across the brook,
And down
the brook's another;
But, oh, the
little hill they took,--
I think I
am its mother!
The moon that saw
Gethsemane,
I watch it
rise and set:
It has so many
things to see,
They help
it to forget.
But little hills
that sit at home
So many
hundred years,
Remember Greece,
remember Rome,
Remember
Mary's tears.
And far away in
Palestine,
Sadder than
any other,
Grieves still the
hill that I call mine,--
I think I
am its mother!
Exiled
Searching my heart
for its true sorrow,
This is the
thing I find to be:
That I am weary of
words and people,
Sick of the
city, wanting the sea;
Wanting the
sticky, salty sweetness
Of the
strong wind and shattered spray;
Wanting the loud
sound and the soft sound
Of the big
surf that breaks all day.
Always before
about my dooryard,
Marking the
reach of the winter sea,
Rooted in sand and
dragging drift-wood,
Straggled
the purple wild sweet-pea;
Always I climbed
the wave at morning,
Shook the
sand from my shoes at night,
That now am caught
beneath great buildings,
Stricken
with noise, confused with light.
If I could hear
the green piles groaning
Under the
windy wooden piers,
See once again the
bobbing barrels,
And the
black sticks that fence the weirs,
If I could see the
weedy mussels
Crusting
the wrecked and rotting hulls,
Hear once again
the hungry crying
Overhead,
of the wheeling gulls,
Feel once again
the shanty straining
Under the
turning of the tide,
Fear once again
the rising freshet,
Dread the
bell in the fog outside,--
I should be
happy,--that was happy
All day
long on the coast of Maine!
I have a need to
hold and handle
Shells and
anchors and ships again!
I should be happy,
that am happy
Never at
all since I came here.
I am too long away
from water.
I have a
need of water near.
Sonnet:
When I too long
have looked upon your face,
Wherein for me a
brightness unobscured
Save by the mists
of brightness has its place,
And terrible
beauty not to be endured,
I turn away
reluctant from your light,
And stand
irresolute, a mind undone,
A silly, dazzled
thing deprived of sight
From having looked
too long upon the sun.
Then is my daily
life a narrow room
In which a little
while, uncertainly,
Surrounded by
impenetrable gloom,
Among familiar
things grown strange to me
Making my way, I
pause, and feel, and hark,
Till I become
accustomed to the dark.
Sonnet:
Once more into my
arid days like dew,
Like wind from an
oasis, or the sound
Of cold sweet
water bubbling underground,
A treacherous
messenger, the thought of you
Comes to destroy
me; once more I renew
Firm faith in your
abundance, whom I found
Long since to be
but just one other mound
Of sand, whereon
no green thing ever grew.
And once again,
and wiser in no wise,
I chase your
colored phantom on the air,
And sob and curse
and fall and weep and rise
And stumble
pitifully on to where,
Miserable and
lost, with stinging eyes,
Once more I clasp,
--and there is nothing there.
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from A Few Figs From Thistles, 1922
Portrait By a
Neighbor
Before she has her
floor swept
Or her
dishes done,
Any day you'll
find her
A-sunning
in the sun!
It's long after
midnight
Her key's
in the lock,
And you never see
her chimney smoke
Till past
ten o'clock!
She digs in her
garden
With a
shovel and a spoon,
She weeds her lazy
lettuce
By the
light of the moon.
She walks up the
walk
Like a
woman in a dream,
She forgets she
borrowed butter
And pays
you back cream!
Her lawn looks
like a meadow,
And if she
mows the place
She leaves the
clover standing
And the
Queen Anne's lace!
The Philosopher
And what are you
that, missing you,
I should be
kept awake
As many nights as
there are days
With
weeping for your sake?
And what are you
that, missing you,
As many
days as crawl
I should be
listening to the wind
And looking
at the wall?
I know a man
that's a braver man
And twenty
men as kind,
And what are you,
that you should be
The one man
in my mind?
Yet women's ways
are witless ways,
As any sage
will tell,--
And what am I,
that I should love
So wisely
and so well?
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from The Harp Weaver and Other Poems, 1922
(Pulitzer Prize,
1923)
My Heart, Being
Hungry
My heart, being
hungry, feeds on food
The fat of
heart despise.
Beauty where
beauty never stood,
And sweet
where no sweet lies
I gather to my
querulous need,
Having a growing
heart to feed.
It may be, when my
heart is dull,
Having
attained its girth,
I shall not find
so beautiful
The meagre
shapes of earth,
Nor linger in the
rain to mark
The smell of tansy
through the dark.
Departure
It's little I care
what path I take,
And where it leads
it's little I care;
But out of this
house, lest my heart break,
I must go, and off
somewhere.
It's little I know
what's in my heart,
What's in my mind
it's little I know,
But there's that
in me must up and start,
And it's little I
care where my feet go.
I wish I could
walk for a day and a night,
And find me at
dawn in a desolate place
With never the rut
of a road in sight,
Nor the roof of a
house, nor the eyes of a face.
I wish I could
walk till my blood should spout,
And drop me, never
to stir again,
On a shore that is
wide, for the tide is out,
And the weedy
rocks are bare to the rain.
But dump or dock,
where the path I take
Brings up, it's
little enough I care:
And it's little
I'd mind the fuss they'll make,
Huddled dead in a
ditch somewhere.
"Is something the matter, dear," she said,
"That you sit at your work so silently?"
"No, mother, no, 'twas a knot in my thread.
There goes the kettle, I'll make the tea."
The Spring and the
Fall
In the spring of
the year, in the spring of the year,
I walked the road
beside my dear.
The trees were
black where the bark was wet.
I see them yet, in
the spring of the year.
He broke me a
bough of the blossoming peach
That was out of
the way and hard to reach.
In the fall of the
year, in the fall of the year,
I walked the road
beside my dear.
The rooks went up
with a raucous trill.
I hear them still,
in the fall of the year.
He laughed at all
I dared to praise,
And broke my
heart, in little ways.
Year be springing
or year be falling,
The bark will drip
and the birds be calling.
There's much
that's fine to see and hear
In the spring of a
year, in the fall of a year.
'Tis not love's
going hurt my days.
But that it went
in little ways.
The Ballad of the
Harp-Weaver
"Son," said my
mother,
When I was
knee-high,
"You've need of
clothes to cover you,
And not a
rag have I.
"There's nothing
in the house
To make a
boy breeches,
Nor shears to cut
a cloth with
Nor thread
to take stitches.
"There's nothing
in the house
But a
loaf-end of rye,
And a harp with a
woman's head
Nobody will
buy,"
And she
began to cry.
That was in the
early fall.
When came
the late fall,
"Son," she said,
"the sight of you
Makes your
mother's blood crawl,--
"Little skinny
shoulder-blades
Sticking
through your clothes!
And where you'll
get a jacket from
God above
knows.
"It's lucky for
me, lad,
Your
daddy's in the ground,
And can't see the
way I let
His son go
around!"
And she
made a queer sound.
That was in the
late fall.
When the
winter came,
I'd not a pair of
breeches
Nor a shirt
to my name.
I couldn't go to
school,
Or out of
doors to play.
And all the other
little boys
Passed our
way.
"Son," said my
mother,
"Come,
climb into my lap,
And I'll chafe
your little bones
While you
take a nap."
And, oh, but we
were silly
For half an
hour or more,
Me with my long
legs
Dragging on
the floor,
A-rock-rock-rocking
To a
mother-goose rhyme!
Oh, but we were
happy
For half an
hour's time!
But there was I, a
great boy,
And what
would folks say
To hear my mother
singing me
To sleep
all day,
In such a
daft way?
Men say the winter
Was bad
that year;
Fuel was scarce,
And food
was dear.
A wind with a
wolf's head
Howled
about our door,
And we burned up
the chairs
And sat
upon the floor.
All that was left
us
Was a chair
we couldn't break,
And the harp with
a woman's head
Nobody
would take,
For song or
pity's sake.
The night before
Christmas
I cried
with the cold,
I cried myself to
sleep
Like a
two-year-old.
And in the deep
night
I felt my
mother rise,
And stare down
upon me
With love
in her eyes.
I saw my mother
sitting
On the one
good chair,
A light falling on
her
From I
couldn't tell where,
Looking nineteen,
And not a
day older,
And the harp with
a woman's head
Leaned
against her shoulder.
Her thin fingers,
moving
In the
thin, tall strings,
Were
weav-weav-weaving
Wonderful
things.
Many bright
threads,
From where
I couldn't see,
Were running
through the harp-strings
Rapidly,
And gold threads
whistling
Through my
mother's hand.
I saw the web grow,
And the
pattern expand.
She wove a child's
jacket,
And when it
was done
She laid it on the
floor
And wove
another one.
She wove a red
cloak
So regal to
see,
"She's made it for
a king's son,"
I said,
"and not for me."
But I knew
it was for me.
She wove a pair of
breeches
Quicker
than that!
She wove a pair of
boots
And a
little cocked hat.
She wove a pair of
mittens,
She wove a
little blouse,
She wove all night
In the
still, cold house.
She sang as she
worked,
And the
harp-strings spoke;
Her voice never
faltered,
And the
thread never broke.
And when I
awoke,--
There sat my mother
With the
harp against her shoulder
Looking nineteen
And not a
day older,
A smile about her
lips,
And a light
about her head,
And her hands in
the harp-strings
Frozen
dead.
And piled up
beside her
And
toppling to the skies,
Were the clothes
of a king's son,
Just my
size.
Spring Song
I know why the
yellow forsythia
Holds its breath
and will not bloom,
And the robin
thrusts his beak in his wing.
Want me to tell
you? Think you can bear it?
Cover your eyes
with your hand and hear it.
You know how cold
the days are still?
And everybody
saying how late the Spring is?
Well---cover
your eyes with your hand-- the thing is,
There isn't going
to be any Spring.
No parking here!
No parking here!
They said to
Spring: No parking here!
Spring came on as
she always does,
Laid her hand on
the yellow forsythia,--
Little boys turned
in their sleep and smiled,
Dreaming of
marbles, dreaming of agates;
Little girls leapt
from their bed to see
Spring come by
with her painted wagons,
Coloured wagons
creaking with wonder--
Laid her hand on
the robin's throat;
When up comes
you-know-who, my dear,
You-know-who in a
fine blue coat,
And says to
Spring: No parking here!
No parking here!
No parking here!
Move on!
Move on! No parking here!
Come walk with me
in the city gardens.
(Better keep an
eye out for you-know-who)
Did you ever see
such a sickly showing?--
Middle of June,
and nothing growing;
The gardeners peer
and scratch their heads
And drop their
sweat on the tulip-beds,
But not a blade
thrusts through.
Come, move
on! Don't you know how to walk?
No parking here!
And no back-talk!
Oh, well,---
hell, it's all for the best.
She certainly made
a lot of clutter,
Dropping petals
under the trees,
Taking your mind
off your bread and butter.
Anyhow, it's
nothing to me.
I can remember,
and so can you.
(Though we'd
better watch out for you-know-who,
When we sit around
remembering Spring).
We shall hardly
notice in a year or two.
You can get
accustomed to anything.
Sonnet:
When you, that at
this moment are to me
Dearer than words
on paper, shall depart,
And be no more the
warder of my heart,
Whereof again
myself shall hold the key;
And be no more,
what now you seem to be,
The sun, from
which all excellencies start
In a round nimbus,
nor a broken dart
Of moonlight,
even, splintered on the sea;
I shall remember
only of this hour
And weep somewhat,
as now you see me weep
The pathos of your
love, that, like a flower,
Fearful of death
yet amorous of sleep,
Droops for a
moment and beholds, dismayed,
The wind whereon
its petals shall be laid.
Sonnet:
Oh, oh, you will
be sorry for that word!
Give me back my
book and take my kiss instead.
Was it my enemy or
my friend I heard,
"What a big book
for such a little head!"
Come, I will show
you now my newest hat,
And you may watch
me purse my mouth and prink!
Oh, I shall love
you still, and all of that.
I never again
shall tell you what I think.
I shall be sweet
and crafty, soft and sly;
You will not catch
me reading any more:
I shall be called
a wife to pattern by;
And some day when
you knock and push the door,
Some sane day, not
too bright and not too stormy,
I shall be gone,
and you may whistle for me.
Sonnet:
Here is a wound
that never will heal, I know
Being wrought not
of a dearness and a death
But of a love
turned ashes and the breath
Gone out of
beauty; never again will grow
The grass on that
scarred acre, though I sow
Young seed there
yearly and the sky bequeath
Its friendly
weathers down, far underneath
Shall be such
bitterness of an old woe.
That April should
be shattered by a gust,
That August should
be leveled by a rain,
I can endure, and
that the lifted dust
Of man should
settle to the earth again;
But that a dream
can die, will be a thrust
Between my ribs
forever of hot pain.
Sonnet:
I shall go back
again to the bleak shore
And build a little
shanty on the sand
In such a way that
the extremest band
Of brittle seaweed
shall escape my door
But by a yard or
two; and nevermore
Shall I return to
take you by the hand.
I shall be gone to
what I understand,
And happier than I
ever was before.
The love that
stood a moment in your eyes,
The words that lay
a moment on your tongue,
Are one with all
that in a moment dies,
A little
under-said and over-sung.
But I shall find
the sullen rocks and skies
Unchanged from
what they were when I was young.
Sonnet:
Loving you less
than life, a little less
Than bitter-sweet
upon a broken wall
Or bush-wood smoke
in autumn, I confess
I cannot swear I
love you not at all.
For there is that
about you in this light--
A yellow darkness,
sinister of rain--
Which sturdily
recalls my stubborn sight
To dwell on you,
and dwell on you again.
And I am made
aware of many a week
I shall consume,
remembering in what way
Your brown hair
grows about your brow and cheek,
And what divine
absurdities you say:
Till all the
world, and I, and surely you,
Will know I love
you, whether or not I do.
Sonnet:
What lips my lips
have kissed, and where, and why,
I have forgotten,
and what arms have lain
Under my head till
morning; but the rain
Is full of ghosts
tonight that tap and sigh
Upon the glass and
listen for reply,
And in my heart
there stirs a quiet pain
For unremembered
lads that not again
Will turn to me at
midnight with a cry.
Thus in the winter
stands the lonely tree,
Nor knows what
birds have vanished one by one,
Yet knows its
boughs more silent than before:
I cannot say what
loves have come and gone,
I only know that
summer sang in me
A little while,
that in me sings no more.
Sonnet:
How healthily
their feet upon the floor
Strike down! These
are no spirits, but a band
Of children,
surely, leaping hand in hand
Into the air in
groups of three and four,
Wearing their
silken rags as if they wore
Leaves only and
light grasses, or a strand
Of black elusive
seaweed oozing sand,
And running hard
as if along a shore.
I know how lost
forever, and at length
How still these
lovely tossing limbs shall lie,
And the bright
laughter and the panting breath;
And yet, before
such beauty and such strength,
Once more, as
always when the dance is high,
I am rebuked that
I believe in death.
Sonnet:
(from "Songs From
an Ungrafted Tree")
One way there was
of muting in the mind
A little while the
ever-clamorous care;
And there was
rapture, of a decent kind,
In making mean and
ugly objects fair:
Soft-sooted
kettle-bottoms, that had been
Time after time
set in above the fire,
Faucets, and
candlesticks, corroded green,
To mine again from
quarry; to attire
The shelves in
paper petticoats, and tack
New oilcloth in
the ringed-and-rotten's place,
Polish the stove
till you could see your face,
And after
nightfall rear an aching back
In a changed
kitchen, bright as a new pin,
An advertisement,
far too fine to cook a supper in.
Sonnet:
(from "Songs From
an Ungrafted Tree")
It came into her
mind, seeing how the snow
Was gone, and the
brown grass exposed again,
And clothespins,
and an apron long ago,
In some white
storm that sifted through the pane
And sent her forth
reluctantly at last
To gather in,
before the line gave way,
Garments, board
stiff, that galloped on the blast
Clashing like
angel armies in a fray,
An apron long ago
in such a night
Blown down and
buried in the deepening drift,
To lie till April
thawed it back to sight,
Forgotten, quaint
and novel as a gift--
It struck her, as
she pulled and pried and tore,
That here was
Spring, and the whole year to be lived through once more.
*****************
from The Buck in the Snow, 1928
To the Wife of a
Sick Friend
Shelter this
candle from the wind.
Hold it steady. In
its light
The cave wherein
we wonder lost
Glitters with
frosty stalactite,
Blossoms with
mineral rose and lotus,
Sparkles with
crystal moon and star,
Till a man would
rather be lost than found:
We have forgotten
where we are.
Shelter this
candle. Shrewdly blowing
Down the cave from
a secret door
Enters our only
foe, the wind.
Hold it steady.
Lest we stand,
Each in a sudden,
separate dark,
The hot wax
spattered upon your hand,
The smoking wick
in my nostrils strong,
The inner eyelid
red and green
For a moment yet
with moons and roses,--
Then the
unmitigated dark.
Alone, alone, in a
terrible place,
In utter dark
without a face,
With only the
dripping of the water on the stone,
And the sound of
your tears, and the taste of my own.
To A Friend
Estranged From Me
Now goes under,
and I watch go under, the sun
That will not rise
again.
Today has seen the
setting, in your eyes, cold and senseless as the sea,
Of friendship
better that bread, and of bright charity
That lifts a man a
little above the beasts that run.
That this could be!
That I should live
to see
Most vulgar Pride,
that stale obstreperous clown,
So fitted out with
purple robe and crown
To stand among his
betters! Face to face
With outraged me
in this once holy place,
Where Wisdom was a
favoured guest and hunted
Truth was harbored
out of danger,
He bulks
enthroned, a lewd, an insupportable stranger!
I would have
sworn, indeed I swore it:
The hills may
shift, the waters may decline,
Winter may twist
the stem from the twig that bore it,
But never your
love from me, your hand from mine.
Now goes under the
sun, and I watch it go under.
Farewell, sweet
light, great wonder!
You, too,
farewell,--but fare not well enough to dream
You have done
wisely to invite the night before the darkness came.
The Buck in the
Snow
White sky, over
the hemlocks bowed with snow,
Saw you not at the
beginning of evening the antlered buck and his doe
Standing in the
apple-orchard? I saw them. I saw them suddenly go,
Tails up, with
long leaps lovely and slow,
Over the
stone-wall into the wood of hemlocks bowed with snow.
Now lies he here,
his wild blood scalding the snow.
How strange a
thing is death, bringing to his knees, bringing to his antlers
The buck in the
snow.
How strange a
thing,--a mile away by now, it may be,
Under the heavy
hemlocks that as the moments pass
Shift their loads
a little, letting fall a feather of snow--
Life, looking out
attentive from the eyes of the doe.
Hangman's Oak
Before the cock in
the barnyard spoke,
Before it well was day,
Horror like a
serpent from about the Hangman's Oak
Uncoiled and slid away.
Pity and Peace
were on the limb
That
bore such bitter fruit.
Deep he lies, and
the desperate blood of him
Befriends the innocent root.
Brother, I said to
the air beneath the bough
Whence he had swung,
It will not be
long for any of us now;
We
do not grow young.
It will not be
long for the knotter of ropes, not long
For
the sheriff or for me,
Or for any of them
that came five hundred strong
To
see you swing from a tree.
Side by side
together in the belly of Death
We
sit without hope,
You, and I, and
the mother that gave you breath,
And
the tree, and the rope.
The Cameo
Forever over now,
forever, forever gone
That day. Clear
and diminished like a scene
Carven in Cameo,
the lighthouse, and the cove between
The sandy cliffs,
and the boat drawn up on the beach;
And the long skirt
of a lady innocent and young,
Her hand resting
on her bosom, her head hung;
And the figure of
a man in earnest speech.
Clear and
diminished like a scene cut in cameo
The lighthouse,
and the boat on the beach, and the two shapes
Of the woman and
the man; lost like the lost day
Are the words that
passed, and the pain,-discarded, cut away
From the stone, as
from the memory the heat of the tears escapes.
O troubled forms,
O early love unfortunate and hard,
Time has estranged
you into a jewel cold and pure;
From the action of
the waves and from the action of sorrow forever secure,
White against a
ruddy cliff you stand, chalcedony on sard.
To a Young Girl
Shall I despise
you that your colourless tears
Made rainbows in
your lashes, and you forgot to weep?
Would we were half
so wise, that eke a grief out
By sitting in the
dark, until we fall asleep.
I only fear lest,
being by nature sunny,
By and by you will
weep no more at all,
And fall asleep in
the light, having lost with the tears
The colour in the
lashes that comes as tears fall.
I would not have
you darken your lids with weeping
Beautiful eyes,
but I would have you weep enough
To wet the fingers
of the hand held over the eye-lids
And stain a little
the light frock's delicate stuff.
For there came to
mind, as I watched you winking the tears down,
Laughing faces,
blown from the west and the east,
Faces lovely and
proud that I have prized and cherished,
Nor were the
loveliest among them those that had wept the least.
Sonnet:
(To Jesus on His
Birthday)
For this your
mother sweated in the cold,
For this you bled
upon the bitter tree:
A yard of tinsel
ribbon bought and sold;
A paper wreath; a
day at home for me.
The merry bells
ring out, the people kneel;
Up goes the man of
God before the crowd;
With voice of
honey and eyes of steel
He drones your
humble gospel to the proud.
Nobody listens.
Less than the wind that blows
Are all your words
to us you died to save.
O prince of Peace!
O Sharon's dewy Rose!
How mute you lie
within your vaulted grave.
The stone the
angel rolled away with tears
Is back upon your
mouth these thousand years.
**************
from Fatal Interview, 1931
Sonnet:
Love is not all:
it is not meat nor drink
Nor slumber nor a
roof against the rain;
Nor yet a floating
spar to men that sink
And rise and sink
and rise and sink again;
Love can not fill
the thickened lung with breath,
Nor clean the
blood, nor set the fractured bone;
Yet many a man is
making friends with death
Even as I speak,
for lack of love alone.
It well may be
that in a difficult hour,
Pinned down by
pain and moaning for release,
Or nagged by want
past resolution's power,
I might be driven
to sell your love for peace,
Or trade the
memory of this night for food.
It well may be. I
do not think I would.
Sonnet:
Hearing your
words, and not a word among them
Tuned to my
liking, on a salty day
When inland woods
were pushed by winds that flung them
Hissing to leeward
like a ton of spray,
I thought how off
Matinicus the tide
Came pounding in,
came running through the Gut
While from the
Rock the warning whistle cried,
And children
whimpered, and the doors blew shut;
There in the
autumn when the men go forth,
With slapping
skirts the island women stand
In gardens
stripped and scattered, peering north,
With dahlia tubers
dripping from the hand:
The wind of their
endurance, driving south,
Flattened your
words against your speaking mouth.
Sonnet:
Now by the path I
climbed, I journey back.
The oaks have
grown; I have been long away.
Talking with me
your memory and your lack
I now descend into
a milder day;
Stripped of your
love, unburdened of my hope,
Descend the path I
mounted from the plain;
Yet steeper than I
fancied seems the slope
And stonier, now
that I go down again.
Warm falls the
dusk; the clanking of a bell
Faintly ascends
upon this heavier air;
I do recall those
grassy pastures well:
In early spring
they drove the cattle there.
And close at hand
should be a shelter, too,
From which the
mountain peaks are not in view.
-------------------------------------
from Fatal Interview, 1931
Sonnet:
Love is not all:
it is not meat nor drink
Nor slumber nor a
roof against the rain;
Nor yet a floating
spar to men that sink
And rise and sink
and rise and sink again;
Love can not fill
the thickened lung with breath,
Nor clean the
blood, nor set the fractured bone;
Yet many a man is
making friends with death
Even as I speak,
for lack of love alone.
It well may be
that in a difficult hour,
Pinned down by
pain and moaning for release,
Or nagged by want
past resolution's power,
I might be driven
to sell your love for peace,
Or trade the
memory of this night for food.
It well may be. I
do not think I would.
Sonnet:
Hearing your
words, and not a word among them
Tuned to my
liking, on a salty day
When inland woods
were pushed by winds that flung them
Hissing to leeward
like a ton of spray,
I thought how off
Matinicus the tide
Came pounding in,
came running through the Gut
While from the
Rock the warning whistle cried,
And children
whimpered, and the doors blew shut;
There in the
autumn when the men go forth,
With slapping
skirts the island women stand
In gardens
stripped and scattered, peering north,
With dahlia tubers
dripping from the hand:
The wind of their
endurance, driving south,
Flattened your
words against your speaking mouth.
Sonnet:
Now by the path I
climbed, I journey back.
The oaks have
grown; I have been long away.
Talking with me
your memory and your lack
I now descend into
a milder day;
Stripped of your
love, unburdened of my hope,
Descend the path I
mounted from the plain;
Yet steeper than I
fancied seems the slope
And stonier, now
that I go down again.
Warm falls the
dusk; the clanking of a bell
Faintly ascends
upon this heavier air;
I do recall those
grassy pastures well:
In early spring
they drove the cattle there.
And close at hand
should be a shelter, too,
From which the
mountain peaks are not in view.
**************
from Wine From These Grapes, 1934
Autumn Daybreak
Cold wind of
autumn, blowing loud
At dawn, a
fortnight overdue,
Jostling the
doors, and tearing through
My bedroom to
rejoin the cloud,
I know--for I can
hear the hiss
And scrape of
leaves along the floor--
How may boughs,
lashed bare by this,
Will rake the
cluttered sky once more.
Tardy, and
somewhat south of east,
The sun will rise
at length, made known
More by the meagre
light increased
Than by a
disk in splendour shown;
When, having but
to turn my head,
Through the
stripped maple I shall see,
Bleak and
remembered, patched with red,
The hill all
summer hid from me.
The Oak Leaves
Yet in the end,
defeated too, worn out and ready to fall,
Hangs from the
drowsy tree with cramped and desperate stem
above
the ditch the last leaf of all.
There is something
to be learned, I guess, from looking at the
dead
leaves under the living tree;
Something to be
set to a lusty tune and learned and sung, it well
might
be;
Something to be
learned--though I was ever a ten-o'clock scholar
at
this school--
Even perhaps by me.
But my heart goes
out to the oak-leaves that are the last to sigh
"Enough," and lose
their hold;
They have boasted
to the nudging frost and to the two-and-thirty
winds
that they would never die,
Never even grow
old.
(These are those
russet leaves that cling
All winter, even
into the spring,
To the dormant
bough, in the wood knee-deep in the snow the only
coloured
thing.
The Fawn
There it was I saw
what I shall never forget
And never retrieve.
Monstrous and
beautiful to human eyes, hard to believe,
He lay, yet there
he lay,
Asleep on the
moss, his head on his polished cleft
small
ebony hooves,
The child of the
doe, the dappled child of the deer.
Surely his mother
had never said, "Lie here
Till I return," so
spotty and plain to see
On the green moss
lay he.
His eyes had
opened; he considered me.
I would have given
more than I care to say
To thrifty ears,
might I have had him for my friend
One moment only of
that forest day:
Might I have had
the acceptance, not the love
Of those clear
eyes;
Might I have been
for him in the bough above
Or the root
beneath his forest bed,
A part of the
forest, seen without surprise.
Was it alarm, or
was it the wind of my fear lest he depart
That jerked him to
his jointy knees,
And sent him
crashing off, leaping and stumbling
On his new legs,
between the stems of the white trees?
Sonnet
Time, that renews
the tissues of this frame,
That built the
child and hardened the soft bone,
Taught him to
wail, to blink, to walk alone,
Stare, question,
wonder, give the world a name,
Forget the watery
darkness whence he came,
Attends no less
the boy to manhood grown,
Brings him new
raiment, strips him of his own:
All skins are shed
at length, remorse, even shame.
Such hope is mine,
if this indeed be true,
I dread no more
the first white in my hair,
Or even age
itself, the easy shoe,
The cane, the
wrinkled hands, the special chair:
Time, doing this
to me, may alter too
My anguish, into
something I can bear.
The Leaf and the
Tree
When will you
learn, myself, to be
a dying leaf on a
living tree?
Budding, swelling,
growing strong,
Wearing green, but
not for long,
Drawing sustenance
from air,
That other leaves,
and you not there,
May bud, and at
the autumn's call
Wearing russet,
ready to fall?
Has not this trunk
a deed to do
Unguessed by small
and tremulous you?
Shall not these
branches in the end
To wisdom and the
truth ascend?
And the great
lightning plunging by
Look sidewise with
a golden eye
To glimpse a tree
so tall and proud
It sheds its
leaves upon a cloud?
Here, I think, is
the heart's grief:
The tree, no
mightier than the leaf,
Makes firm its
root and spreads it crown
And stands; but in
the end comes down.
That airy top no
boy could climb
Is trodden in a
little time
By cattle on their
way to drink.
The fluttering
thoughts a leaf can think,
That hears the
wind and waits its turn,
Have taught it all
a tree can learn.
Time can make soft
that iron wood.
The tallest trunk
that ever stood,
In time, without a
dream to keep,
Crawls in beside
the root to sleep.
On the Wide Heath
On the wide heath
at evening overtaken,
When
the fast-reddening sun
Drops, and against
the sky the looming bracken
Waves, and the day is done,
Though no
unfriendly nostril snuffs his bone,
Though English wolves be dead,
The fox abroad on
errands of his own,
The
adder gone to bed,
The weary traveler
from his aching hip
Lengthens his long stride;
Though Home be but
humming on his lip,
No
happiness, no pride,
He does not drop
him under the yellow whin
To
sleep the darkness through;
Home to the yellow
light that shines within
The
kitchen of a loud shrew,
Home over stones
and sand, through stagnant water
He
goes, mile after mile
Home to a wordless
poaching son and a daughter
With
a disdainful smile,
Home to the worn
reproach, the disagreeing,
The
shelter, the stale air; content to be
Pecked at,
confined, encroached upon,--it being
Too
lonely, to be free.
**************
From Huntsman, What Quarry?,1939
Plaid Dress
Strong sun, that
bleach
The curtains of my
room, can you not render
Colourless this
dress I wear?--
This violent plaid
Of purple angers
and red shames; the yellow stripe
Of thin but valid
treacheries; the flashy green of kind deeds done
Through indolence
high judgments given here in haste;
The recurring
checker of the serious breach of taste?
No more uncoloured
than unmade,
I fear, can be
this garment that I may not doff;
Confession does
not strip it off,
To send me
homeward eased and bare;
All through the
formal, unoffending evening, under the clean
Bright hair,
Lining the subtle
gown... it is not seen,
But it is there.
Sonnet:
Upon this age,
that never speaks its mind,
This furtive age,
this age endowed with power
To wake the moon
with footsteps, fit an oar
Into the rowlocks
of the wind, and find
What swims before
his prow, what swirls behind--
Upon this gifted
age, in its dark hour,
Rains from the sky
a meteoric shower
Of facts . . .
they lie unquestioned, uncombined.
Wisdom enough to
leech us of our ill
Is daily spun; but
there exists no loom
To weave it into
fabric; undefiled
Proceeds pure
Science, and has her say; but still
Upon this world
from the collective womb
Is spewed all day
the red triumphant child.
**************
from Make Bright the Arrows, 1940
To the Maid of
Orleans
Joan, Joan, can
you be
Tending sheep in
Domremy?
Have no voices
spoken plain:
France has need of
you again?--
You, so many years
ago
Welcomed into
Heaven, we know
Maiden without
spot or taint,
First as
foundling, then as saint.
Or do faggot,
stake and torch
In your memory
roar and scorch
Till no sound of
voice come through
Saying France has
need of you?
Joan, Joan,
hearken still,
Hearken, child,
against your will:
Saint thou art,
but at the price
Of recurring
sacrifice;
Martyred many
times must be
Who would keep his
country free.
**************
from Mine the Harvest, published posthumously 1954
(untitled)
The courage that
my mother had
Went with her, and
is with her still:
Rock from New
England quarried;
Now granite in a
granite hill.
The golden brooch
my mother wore
She left behind
for me to wear;
I have no thing I
treasure more:
Yet, it is
something I could spare.
Oh, if instead
she'd left to me
The thing she took
into the grave!--
That courage like
a rock, which she
Has no more need
of, and I have.
Here in a Rocky Cup
Here in a rocky
cup of earth
The simple acorn
brought to birth
What has in ages
grown to be
A very oak, a
mighty tree.
The granite of the
rock is split
And crumbled by
the girth of it.
Incautious was the
rock to feed
The acorn's mouth;
unwise indeed
Am I, upon whose
stony heart
Fell softly down,
sits quietly,
The seed of love's
imperial tree
That soon may
force my breast apart.
"I fear you not. I
have no doubt
My meagre soil
shall starve you out!"
Unless indeed you
prove to be
The kernel of a
kingly tree;
Which if you be I
am content
To go the way the
granite went,
And be myself no
more at all,
So you but prosper
and grow tall.
The Agnostic
The tired agnostic
longs for prayer
More than the
blessed can ever do:
Between the chinks
in his despair,
From out his
forest he peeps through
Upon a clearing
sunned so bright
He cups his
eyeballs from its light.
He for himself who
would decide
What thing is
black, what thing is white,
Whirls with the
whirling spectrum wide,
Runs with the
running spectrum through
Red, orange,
yellow, green and blue
And purple,--
turns and stays his stride
Abruptly, reaching
left and right
To catch all
colours into light--
But light evades
him: still he stands
With rainbows
streaming through his hands.
He knows how half
his hours are spent
In blue or purple
discontent,
In red or yellow
hate or fright,
And fresh young
green whereon a blight
Sits down in
orange overnight.
Yet worships still
the ardent sod
For every ripped
and ribboned hue,
For warmth of sun
and breath of air,
And beauty met
with everywhere;
Not knowing why,
not knowing who
Pumps in his
breath and sucks it out,
Nor unto whom his
praise is due.
Yet naught or
nobody obeys
But his own heart,
which bids him, "Praise!"
This, knowing that
doubled were his days
Could he but rid
his mind of doubt--
Yet will not rid
him, in such ways
Of awful dalliance
with despair--
And, though
denying, not betrays.
Cave Canem
Importuned through
the mails, accosted over the telephone,
overtaken
by running footsteps, caught by the sleeve,
the
servant of strangers,
While amidst the
haste and confusion lover and friend quietly
step
into the unreachable past,
I throw bright
time to chickens in an untidy yard.
Through foul
timidity, through gross indisposition to excite
the
ill-will of even the most negligible,
Disliking voices
raised in anger, faces with no love in them,
I avoid the
looming visitor,
Flee him adroitly
around corners,
Hating him,
wishing him well;
Lest if he
confront me I be forced to say what is in no wise true:
That he is
welcome; that I am unoccupied;
And forced to sit
while the potted roses wilt in the crate
or
the sonnet cools
Bending a
respectful nose above such dried philosophies
As have hung in
wreaths from the rafters of my house since
I
was a child.
Some trace of
kindliness in this, no doubt,
There may be.
But not enough to
keep a bird alive.
There is a flaw
amounting to a fissure
In such behaviour.
An Ancient Gesture
I thought, as I
wiped my eyes on the corner of my apron:
Penelope did this
too.
And more than
once: you can't keep weaving all day
And undoing it all
through the night;
Your arms get
tired, and the back of your neck gets tight;
And along towards
morning, when you think it will never be light,
And your husband
has been gone, and you don't know where, for years.
Suddenly you burst
into tears;
There is simply
nothing else to do.
And I thought, as
I wiped my eyes on the corner of my apron:
This is an ancient
gesture, authentic, antique,
In the very best
tradition, classic, Greek;
Ulysses did this
too.
But only as a
gesture,--a gesture which implied
To the assembled
throng that he was much too moved to speak.
He learned it from
Penelope...
Penelope, who
really cried.
To a Snake
Poor dying thing;
it was my dog, not I
That did for you.
I gave you a wide
arc, and moved to pass.
And yet, I was not
sad that you should die;
You jarred me so;
you were too motionless
And sudden, coiled
there in the grass.
Now, you are
coiled no longer. Now
Your splendid,
streaked back is to the ground.
Your beautiful,
light-scarlet blood is spattered,
And shines in
dreadful dew-drops all around.
And that white,
ugly belly you have not confessed,--
So naked, so
unscrolled with patterns--is at last exposed.
Oh--oh--I do
not like to see
A fellow-mortal's
final agony!
We shared this
world all summer until now!
Now,--off you go.
All upside-down
you lie, less looped than flung.
And all but done
for.
And yet,--with
head still raised; and that red, flickering tongue.
(untitled)
Sometimes, oh,
often, indeed, in the midst of ugly adversity, beautiful
Memories return.
You awake in
wonder, you awake at half-past four,
Wondering what
wonder is in store.
You reach for your
clothes in the dark and pull them on, you
have
no time
Even to wash your
face, you have to climb Megunticook.
You run through
the sleeping town; you do not arouse
Even a dog, you
are so young and so light on your feet.
What a way to
live, what a way...
No breakfast, not
even hungry. An apple, though,
In the pocket.
And the only
people you meet are store-windows.
The path up the
mountain is stony and in places steep,
And here it is
really dark--wonderful, wonderful,
Wonderful--the
smell of bark
And rotten leaves
and dew! And nobody awake
In all the world
but you!--
Who lie on a high
cliff until your elbow ache,
To see the sun
come up over Penobscot Bay.
Sonnet in Dialectic
And is indeed
truth beauty?--at the cost
Of all that we
cared for, can this be?--
To see the coarse
triumphant, and to see
Honour and pity
ridiculed, and tossed
Upon a poked-at
fire; all courage lost
Save what is
whelped and fattened by decree
To move among the
unsuspecting free
And trap the
thoughtful, with their thoughts engrossed?
Drag yet that
stream for Beauty, if you will;
And find her, if
you can; finding her drowned
Will not dismay
your ethics,--and you will still
To one and all
insist she has been found...
And haggard men
will smile your praise, until,
Some day, they
stumble on her burial mound.
Sonnet:
It is fashion now
to wave aside
As tedious,
obvious, vacuous, trivial, trite,
All things which
do not tickle, tease, excite
To some
subversion, or in verbiage hide
Intent, or mock,
or with hot sauce provide
A dish to prick
the thickened appetite;
Straightforwardness
is wrong, evasion right;
It is correct, de
riguere, to deride.
What fumy wits
these modern wags expose,
For all thir
versatility: Voltaire,
Who wore to bed a
night cap, and would close,
In fears of
drafts, all windows, could declare
In antique
stuffiness, a phrase that blows
Still through
men's smoky minds, and clears the air.
Sonnet:
Read history; so
learn your place in Time;
And go to sleep:
all this was done before;
We do it better,
fouling every shore;
We disinfect, we
do not probe, the crime.
Our engines plunge
into the seas, they climb
Above our
atmosphere: we grow not more
Profound as we
approach the ocean's floor;
Our flight is
lofty; it is not sublime.
Yet long ago this
Earth by struggling men
Was scuffed, was
scraped by mouths that bubbled mud;
And will be so
again, and yet again;
Until we trace our
poison to its bud
And root, and
there uproot it: until then,
Earth will be
warmed each winter by man's blood.
Sonnet:
Read history: thus
learn how small a space
You may inhabit,
nor inhabit long
In crowding
Cosmos--in that confined place
Work boldly; build
your flimsy barriers strong;
Turn round and
round and, make warm you nest; among
The other hunting
beasts, keep heart and face,--
Not to betray the
doomed and splendid race
You are so proud
of, to which you belong.
For trouble comes
to all of us: the rat
Has courage, in
adversity, to fight;
But what a shining
animal is man,
Who knows, when
pain subsides, that is not that,
For worse than
that must follow--yet can write
Music; can laugh;
play tennis; even plan.